
I am writing this in response to the article in the Fall 2024 issue of the US Equestrian magazine on Equine Anti-doping. I’ve been on the receiving end of USEF’s ” professional, fair, and respectful treatment” when my horse failed a drug test. It is quite different from the picture painted in the article.
USEF says they exist to enforce fair sport and rules. That their process is fair for everyone and is in place to protect our rights. Well guess what? That’s a lie.
The truth is the drugs and medications department exists to generate revenue. It is a bureaucratic machine. We must submit to it even when it is unfair.
USEF is never wrong. If your horse fails a drug test, it is 100% your fault. If you question this, and show them their own guidelines that permit leniency, or have legitimate concerns that the failed drug test was due to outside contamination, you are getting in the way of the machine. The consequences are severe.
The ’process’ is window dressing for a department that exists only to extract money from USEF members. If you refuse to comply with this shake down, you will be destroyed. USEF will disparage your character, smear you to make it appear you intentionally drugged your horse, fine you into oblivion, and if you still won’t pay, ban you from sport for life.
I played their game for over 6 months. I kept waiting for someone with common sense to step in and resolve this in a fair and professional manner. Instead, it kept escalating.
My horse tested positive for Cetirizine (Zyrtec) at a therapeutic level, according to USEF. It was in the urine, not the blood. I never gave this drug to my horse. I explained this. It starts out with, yes, we understand you didn’t drug your horse. Next is, if you want to try and prove that, we will retest the sample but that will cost you at least another $1,000. At this point I didn’t trust their labs or the way the sample was handled, so in addition to the exorbitant retest cost, I declined.
The compromise offer was an $1,800 fine. Their ‘compassion’ was to offer me a payment plan. I continued to resist, and this led to them revealing a ‘reconsideration’ where I could ask again for leniency. I was told it was hopeless before I even presented my request.
Reconsideration was more lip service, just giving them more time to try to convince me that it was only my perception that this was unfair, not that it actually was. Their own guidelines allow for them not to penalize at all. I was bewildered that an entire section of the guidelines was being completely ignored.
The reconsideration was rejected, and I was ordered to admit guilt and pay the fine. I would not.
Months went by. The process was unclear which seemed intentional. There was little communication. From the few interactions I did have, I discovered that their standard for guilt is the legal doctrine of strict liability. That means intent doesn’t matter in determining accountability. Even though I exercised due care (I didn’t drug my horse) I can still be held responsible.
The hearing was scheduled. This is more like a trial where they send multiple vets and lawyers in to testify against you to ensure that they win. USEF winning is a foregone conclusion based on strict liability.
No lawyer would represent me, as the USEF had a slam dunk case. It was now crystal clear there was no way out of this massive penalty and forced admission of guilt. USEF knows this but doesn’t reveal it, unless you hold out, and go all the way to a hearing.
USEF knew at worst this was unintentional contamination yet they came at me with 175 pages of evidence like we were in some adversarial death struggle. It was completely unnecessary and yet they chose to do it. Why?
Why would they treat their members like this? As if USEF members are common criminals with no moral compass.
My horse failed a drug test at a small show, in an open class of no consequence. He wasn’t even registered to earn points or participate in any year end awards. There was no incentive to cheat.
I’ve been competing for nearly 40 years and none of my horses ever failed a drug test. I guess I spent decades building trust so I could cheat in an open dressage class that doesn’t count for anything. USEF thinks this makes sense.
Ultimately the USEF won their case against me and the penalties were assessed. If I want to show in rated competition, I must pay.
I reflected on the torturous journey I took to get to this crossroad. They stressed me out to the point that I couldn’t sleep, eat, or concentrate on my work. I was scared to lose my ability to compete because it was a big part of my life and the only way to get it back was to comply with their demands.
I finally had what for me was the perfect horse. I was excited to try for higher level competition. Now it looked like those goals would have to die.
It is one thing to say you have morals and standards, and another thing when you are staring straight at the end of a lifelong dream to stand up for yourself and your morals and standards. It would have been easy to pay the fine and go on with my life. However, I can’t do something I know is wrong even if it appears to destroy my life’s work.
I thought that since I had revealed how broken this process was, it would be a starting point to get it fixed. Unfortunately, nobody at the USEF or USDF, or even others this has happened to, has any interest in doing this. Calls and emails went unanswered. My position is not popular nor can it be used to inspire change.
Since I’ve been banned, I’ve had to come up with alternate competition plans. It wasn’t easy but I put together a show season for myself this year.
It was hard to write this and relive what happened. I gave up my show career to stick up for myself. I’ve exposed the reality of how failed drug tests are really handled. That there is no process, and the window dressing they call the process is stacked against the membership. There is no way to defend yourself. You pay or you give up USEF recognized shows.
USEF needs to follow the guidelines as written, or do away with this false process.
The reality is this: a failed drug test can simply generate a letter and a bill, sent to the USEF member. There is no need for a department of people to gaslight the membership that this is fair or that it’s even a process.
A lot of effort is put into creating this illusion. Perhaps that effort should be redirected into something more positive for the membership.







