THE REALITY OF DRUG TESTING AT USEF

I am writing this in response to the article in the Fall 2024 issue of the US Equestrian magazine on Equine Anti-doping. I’ve been on the receiving end of USEF’s ” professional, fair, and respectful treatment” when my horse failed a drug test. It is quite different from the picture painted in the article.

USEF says they exist to enforce fair sport and rules. That their process is fair for everyone and is in place to protect our rights. Well guess what? That’s a lie.

The truth is the drugs and medications department exists to generate revenue. It is a bureaucratic machine. We must submit to it even when it is unfair.

USEF is never wrong. If your horse fails a drug test, it is 100% your fault. If you question this, and show them their own guidelines that permit leniency, or have legitimate concerns that the failed drug test was due to outside contamination, you are getting in the way of the machine. The consequences are severe.

The ’process’ is window dressing for a department that exists only to extract money from USEF members. If you refuse to comply with this shake down, you will be destroyed. USEF will disparage your character, smear you to make it appear you intentionally drugged your horse, fine you into oblivion, and if you still won’t pay, ban you from sport for life.

I played their game for over 6 months. I kept waiting for someone with common sense to step in and resolve this in a fair and professional manner. Instead, it kept escalating.

My horse tested positive for Cetirizine (Zyrtec) at a therapeutic level, according to USEF. It was in the urine, not the blood. I never gave this drug to my horse. I explained this. It starts out with, yes, we understand you didn’t drug your horse. Next is, if you want to try and prove that, we will retest the sample but that will cost you at least another $1,000. At this point I didn’t trust their labs or the way the sample was handled, so in addition to the exorbitant retest cost, I declined.

The compromise offer was an $1,800 fine. Their ‘compassion’ was to offer me a payment plan. I continued to resist, and this led to them revealing a ‘reconsideration’ where I could ask again for leniency. I was told it was hopeless before I even presented my request.

Reconsideration was more lip service, just giving them more time to try to convince me that it was only my perception that this was unfair, not that it actually was. Their own guidelines allow for them not to penalize at all. I was bewildered that an entire section of the guidelines was being completely ignored.

The reconsideration was rejected, and I was ordered to admit guilt and pay the fine.  I would not.

Months went by. The process was unclear which seemed intentional. There was little communication. From the few interactions I did have, I discovered that their standard for guilt is the legal doctrine of strict liability.  That means intent doesn’t matter in determining accountability.  Even though I exercised due care (I didn’t drug my horse) I can still be held responsible.

The hearing was scheduled. This is more like a trial where they send multiple vets and lawyers in to testify against you to ensure that they win.  USEF winning is a foregone conclusion based on strict liability.

No lawyer would represent me, as the USEF had a slam dunk case. It was now crystal clear there was no way out of this massive penalty and forced admission of guilt. USEF knows this but doesn’t reveal it, unless you hold out, and go all the way to a hearing.

USEF knew at worst this was unintentional contamination yet they came at me with 175 pages of evidence like we were in some adversarial death struggle. It was completely unnecessary and yet they chose to do it. Why?

Why would they treat their members like this? As if USEF members are common criminals with no moral compass.

My horse failed a drug test at a small show, in an open class of no consequence. He wasn’t even registered to earn points or participate in any year end awards. There was no incentive to cheat.

I’ve been competing for nearly 40 years and none of my horses ever failed a drug test. I guess I spent decades building trust so I could cheat in an open dressage class that doesn’t count for anything. USEF thinks this makes sense.

Ultimately the USEF won their case against me and the penalties were assessed. If I want to show in rated competition, I must pay.

I reflected on the torturous journey I took to get to this crossroad. They stressed me out to the point that I couldn’t sleep, eat, or concentrate on my work. I was scared to lose my ability to compete because it was a big part of my life and the only way to get it back was to comply with their demands.

I finally had what for me was the perfect horse.  I was excited to try for higher level competition. Now it looked like those goals would have to die.

It is one thing to say you have morals and standards, and another thing when you are staring straight at the end of a lifelong dream to stand up for yourself and your morals and standards. It would have been easy to pay the fine and go on with my life. However, I can’t do something I know is wrong even if it appears to destroy my life’s work.

I thought that since I had revealed how broken this process was, it would be a starting point to get it fixed. Unfortunately, nobody at the USEF or USDF, or even others this has happened to, has any interest in doing this. Calls and emails went unanswered. My position is not popular nor can it be used to inspire change.

Since I’ve been banned, I’ve had to come up with alternate competition plans. It wasn’t easy but I put together a show season for myself this year.

It was hard to write this and relive what happened. I gave up my show career to stick up for myself. I’ve exposed the reality of how failed drug tests are really handled. That there is no process, and the window dressing they call the process is stacked against the membership. There is no way to defend yourself. You pay or you give up USEF recognized shows.

USEF needs to follow the guidelines as written, or do away with this false process.

The reality is this: a failed drug test can simply generate a letter and a bill, sent to the USEF member.  There is no need for a department of people to gaslight the membership that this is fair or that it’s even a process.

A lot of effort is put into creating this illusion. Perhaps that effort should be redirected into something more positive for the membership.

SOMETHING WONDERFUL

I never thought much about cars. I bought my first and only car, a 1990 Mustang, because I thought it would be a fun car. I never thought about selling it, never really wanted to sell it, figured I’d have it forever. Overall, I didn’t think much about it. I’m not a car person, I’m a horse person. If something needed to be thought about, it was horse related.

I spent a lot of money fixing that car. I’d rather spend the money on the car I had, than buy a new one. When I looked at new cars, I always thought mine was better.left side

It occurred to me, every once in a while, to take care of my car. I would take it in for extensive detailing, and I had myself a new car again.

When I started my own business 4 years ago, I didn’t drive as much and it seemed the Mustang was just as good as any other car for getting around town for errands and the occasional long trip.

I bought new trucks in the meantime, but the car was a fixture. I decided I’d rather spend my money on horses, and since they were expensive, I figured I’d never have enough of what I considered ‘left over’ for a new car. And since I didn’t want one it was all working out.

Then something that I would classify as strange occurred. An odd turn of events over a couple of months. I’m not sure why this happened, but it became something wonderful. Perhaps not that exciting to most people, not life altering, but as it flowed along, I took great notice of it. An unknown force somehow decided something was needed in my life. I didn’t invite it in. This thing that can’t be classified as thing compelled me to write a story.

It began when my new truck needed some major recall work done. I was planning a long haul with my horses to California in a week and it didn’t seem possible the work could get done before I left. The recall was so extensive I thought it best to find a way. A dealer in Seattle was found who could do the work. It would be a 2 hour trip and I’d have to leave the truck at least overnight, so they offered me a rental car.

When the rental agency picked me up at the dealership, there was me and one other lady needing a rental. They said they had a minivan and a Dodge Challenger. A minivan sounded like a nightmare to me, since I had to drive home 2 hours, so I spoke right up and said ‘dibs’ on the car. The other lady said that was fine with her.

My Mustang, being 30 years old, didn’t have much in the way of driver comforts so when I took my seat in the yellow V6 Dodge Challenger, I was completely freaked out by all the high tech controls, the fact that the air conditioning worked, and it started by pressing a button, not by turning a key. I was actually kind of scared to drive it.

I sat in the rental lot for about 5 minutes trying to orient myself. Once out on the open road, I pressed the accelerator and that thing took off like a rocket. I laughed and laughed every time I sped up, or passed another car. I mean, I literally could not stop laughing and smiling. Over a car.

After I got it home, I couldn’t stay away from it. I drove it around enjoying the thrill of driving this car I previously never even knew existed. I was surprised by how much fun I could have with a car.

2019 new car ytellow

When I had to drive it back to the rental agency I was sad.

Once there, the rental agent mentioned that I had rented the Challenger with the smaller engine, but they also rented the one with the bigger engine, the Hemi. I told him that I hoped I had a chance to rent this Hemi. I was actually looking forward to that day, which at that point who knew if it was even coming.

On the drive home, I decided I was overly impressed by a new car and I’m not used to all the modern fun things a new car can do. What do I need a new car for? And how can I part with my Mustang? I told myself I shouldn’t waste money on things I don’t need.

I took my California road trip and all was well. Even during the trip, which was all horse focused and very exhausting, I continued to find myself thinking about this Hemi.

It made sense, as I had been taking courses on business development, mostly focused on changing your mindset and thinking about what you really want, not what you think you can get.

I learned that thoughts are things, and that if you can imagine it in your mind, a way to make it reality is there. The nice thing about thoughts is they are free, and nobody else has to know about them but you. I kept imagining driving this Hemi and how much fun it would be.

A few weeks later, my truck needed more work done. Immediately I thought, my dreams, they came true!! I called the Seattle dealership and said I wanted them to look at my truck and by the way could I rent the Hemi.

Then the rental company dashed my dreams by telling me they couldn’t hold cars nor guarantee any of these Hemis would be around. I said well if I have to drive a minivan 100 miles home, I might have to stab myself with a fork. They found no humor in my situation.

I begged the service department at the dealership to get me this Hemi. It took several phone calls and the best I could get was “we’ll see what we can do.”

Then another manifestation;  when I dropped off my truck the rental agency came to pick me up – in the Hemi I was going to rent.

This car was black, and because it was a Hemi it was a little louder and throatier in the idle, and it had paddle shifters on the steering wheel, shifting it into manual mode gave the driver even more power.

It didn’t take me long to figure all that out and I was bee boppin’ and scattin’ all the way home on the freeway, and all over the long straight country roads.  I would punch the gas and have my head hit the headrest going from 0 to 60 in less than 6 seconds. I still did not understand why this was so appealing, and why I was spending all my time thinking about cars when I never had before.

dream car

When I finally had to park it for the night, and brought the keys in, I noticed my first name on a tag attached to the key chain. Not my last name, my first name. As if the car already belonged to me. For some reason this blew my mind.

rental car sign from god

I was even more sad when this one had to go back. After I dropped it off, I knew my destiny was to have one of these beautiful cars.

Then my mind started to struggle with the idea. My Mustang had always been there. A very reliable car and yes an inanimate object, but I was attached to it anyway.

It was hard to act.  I knew in order to get the Dodge Challenger Hemi, the Mustang would have to be sold. I thought since I really want this car, that will be easy. It wasn’t. It took me 2 weeks to work up the motivation to clean up the Mustang and place the sales ad.

Several weeks went by.  I was trying to figure out how to pay for the new car. The Mustang would sell but not nearly enough to pay for the Challenger. Many times I dismissed the idea to buy it. My horses are very expensive, and I am always saving for some upcoming large purchase. I was giving myself a choice, to either have a horse or a car.

But then I thought, what if? That’s another question my business training told me to ask.  What if, and why choose? Why not both? All I have to do is find a way to pay for it. How? Getting more clients, offering a valuable service that people want to pay for. My usual old way of thinking, is you can’t have everything you want. I had to let that go.

It is absolutely true you can’t have everything you want. Something must be sacrificed for something else. In this case, free time is sacrificed for work. I knew the answer; get on the hustle and get more clients. The decision was simple, and I understood the sacrifice. When you are working for something you want, and you are doing work that is helping people, it doesn’t seem like work at all.

Opportunities may not come in the order you expect them to, but you still have to act, to make the choice and know that the end result will be as you see it. So the Mustang didn’t sell, but the 2019 Dodge Challenger showed up. It made an appearance during an internet search, with a price so low I thought the engine must be missing.

It was confirmed that the car was real, and it had all the features I wanted. It was also 150 miles away. The price was so unbelievable, I felt that this was it.

I was leaving on another long trip with my horses in less than 3 days. I had to act fast. The dealership told me they wouldn’t hold the car, I needed to get down there quick. I found a way to pay for the car, I found a ride, and in 2 days I was on my way to pick it up.

On the drive to pick it up the Challenger someone called me and offered me a low price for the Mustang. He told me he was going to ‘part it out’. I was conflicted. Was this the opportunity to sell the car and make all the decisions end, or should I go with my gut that told me I could get more for the car than this guy was offering and I needed to find it a home that wouldn’t take it apart?

I turned the offer down, and drove home in the Challenger. Then I started to think I might have buyer remorse. It was a big purchase and maybe I made a huge mistake. There was no time to ponder any of this. I drove it a day or two, then left for another 2 weeks.

gettin the keys

The Mustang was on ebay and was getting low ball offers I kept turning down. One person spoke with me on the phone. He wanted all kinds of details, and told me he and his dad used to restore cars. His dad ran into some trouble and was experiencing hard times. He told me that he wanted to buy the car and restore it with his dad as a gift to him.  I knew I had found the best home for my car. We were able to make the deal.

I came back from my California trip and a few days later the Mustang was loaded onto a truck and shipped to Kansas.

The way you think about the world affects your results. What if I had stuck with my original ‘normal’ thinking.  That spending money on a car is a waste, it should be saved. That you can’t think in terms of having it all, and realizing your dreams.

But there’s a flip side. What if by keeping my old car, I prevented another person from realizing their dream? In my mind, I knew I wanted the Dodge Challenger. I was emotionally attached to wanting it, I kept thinking about it until I found a way, then I found the car. Was it the other side, the person who really wanted my car, that caused these thoughts to be in my head in the first place?

Who am I to decide that someone else can’t afford, or doesn’t need, something they truly want? My old car may help a person turn their life around for the better.

All this happened because of a yellow V6 Challenger that made me smile. Or possibly because someone else thought about a 1990 Mustang.

He continues to keep me updated. Here she is with new headlights:

mustang with new owner

 

 

I’ve had my new car 2 months and I’m still loving it. I find errands to run. I love to drive fast. There is no buyer remorse. This was destiny!

Jeffie and car

 

5 TIPS FOR POWER MEETINGS

Most people consider meetings boring and unproductive.  That’s because they are generally called without a plan, are too long, and don’t engage with those that attend. Try incorporating some of the ideas listed below to super-charge your meetings:

  1. Make them short. Keep your meeting to 15 minutes or less. A short meeting translates to a power packed productive session.
  2. Regular meetings. Meet once a week if possible. Bi-weekly is okay, but anything less than that isn’t often enough.
  3. Encourage everyone to share their ideas.  Everyone should know that this is the place to express themselves. If they have ideas to make their jobs more efficient, or would like to take on something new, this is the time to share it.
  4. Provide snacks. People love to attend meetings if there’s food involved – enough said!
  5. Attendance is optional. This one is a little counter-intuitive, but one advantage is if someone has a deadline or schedule conflict, you don’t have to reschedule the meeting for everyone else.

Try this system for a month. You’ll find your team better focused and higher functioning. This is a team that’s more supportive for you.

THE LITTLE QUARTER HORSE THAT COULD

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Justine 20101

At the end of 2009, one of my horses colicked and died. She was a beautiful eleven year old Westphalen mare, and I had imported her from Germany in 2003. It was tragic, but fortunately happened quickly; it came on so fast there was no time to transport her to the clinic for surgery; she died within a few hours.

I was devastated, but with horses, in order to experience the triumphs and happy times, you have to be prepared to accept some of the difficult times as well.

I only keep two horses at home, so my other horse was left without a buddy. I decided to find a companion animal, nothing fancy, but something I could train and perhaps sell later on. I wasn’t too concerned about having another competition horse; any time spent in the saddle translates to more knowledge.

I looked around locally, and nothing stood out. My friend mentioned she had a Quarter Horse that was currently in reining training, and the horse didn’t show talent for it. She was going to bring her back home and just put her out in pasture. I decided to have a look to see if she would suit me.

She arrived at my house, and my first thought was how pretty she was. She was also very small compared to my warm bloods, but being a Quarter Horse, she was wide-bodied and even though I am 5’7” she was a good fit for me.  She was four years old at the time. Her name was Justine.

I started riding her and immediately noticed something special about her. Now I didn’t have high expectations for her. She was downhill built and moved like a sewing machine. But she was so sweet and willing, and I found myself looking forward to coming to the barn because every time she saw me she nickered loudly. And wow, what a quick learner she was! At age four, I had her doing all the first level dressage moves in a few months. Her canter was a highlight too, like a rocking horse.

Again, since I only had the two horses at home, I decided to bring her along to the shows with me. She was for sale, as her owner was having health problems and couldn’t keep her. So I figured getting her out and showing her would help with the sales process.

She had an amazing year. She almost always scored in the 60’s, and placed in most of her classes. She would go toe to toe with fancy warm bloods and hold her own. My other horse showed in the advanced classes, and preparing for those would stress me out. With her, I could just relax and have fun. It was a nice contrast from the pressure I normally felt when I showed.

She helped ease the sadness of losing my other horse. I was so amazed at how she tried, she never let me down. She didn’t have the natural talent of the warm bloods, but she would put 110% effort in every time. She belonged out there.  I try not to be overly dramatic, but it was almost like she had been sent to me for a reason. I never pondered that too much, all I knew was that I liked her and she brought me joy.

At the end of the season, I had another horse I brought into the barn to start, so I sent Justine back to her owner. I was satisfied with our season together, and thought it was time for both of us to move on.

Justine came back into my life a little over a year later. Another chapter began, and I will share that story in future posts.